Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Look at her. There she goes. Do you see her scar?
It's not anything that can be seen from afar.
You need to be close to get a good look
Her past haunted her like a horror film or a Stephen King book
Things aren't what they should be. Yet, she doesn't know why
She remembers those nights in bed when she would just lay there and cry
Not sure when the tears would stop but she felt the pain
Ever since she was a teen, she was always made to feel bad
People told her she'd never do anything good in life. It was truly sad
She didn't let it stop her from doing what she wanted to do
She had goals, ideas, and visions that she was determined to see through
Then, things changed.
Was it the day when she was 17 and she went out with Roy on a date?
That was the night she told him 'NO' but he didn't stop and proceeded for the rape
Was it the day that her momma caught her in a lie?
She was supposed to go to school but instead she stayed at home and got high
Weed in the air and beer by the kegs
She woke up with her panties around her legs
What happened in that room? She didn't have a clue
All she remembers was it was her and 3 dudes.
Ten years have passed and she's just happy to be alive
She's 27. Never had a man. And she can't tell you why.
There have been men in her life who have came and went
In her mind, she's still waiting on the dude that is heaven sent
She knows how to use her body to get sex
But that's all she's ever gotten and she knows what's next
Unanswered text messages and phone calls
They made her feel like a used rag doll.
She's now at a critical point in her life
Hoping that a man will make her his wife
She knows nothing about commitment and it shows
The people on the street say "you can't marry a hoe"
Is that what she is? Just because she can't keep a man?
Does it matter if she's had several one night stands?
Sex on the first date? No problem for this woman
She can "do it" like nobody else can.
The problem with her is that she uses sex like a gun
She no longer even considers it to be real fun
It's just something to do while she's passing the time
Something she's excelled at no matter his game or lines
She thinks she's winning. And she'll find a man...at all cost
In reality, she's a good girl gone bad. A Black Girl Lost.